Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas.

My hero.

My Mum's Nasty Stare.

I'm proud to have her as my mum.

Always there for me.

Ready for xmas mass.

Inside.

I may appear happy to you.
But i'm not.
Everything's still fucked up to me.
You are the cause for everything.
Lets see whether you will even bother to change.

Life.

Nothing is getting better.
Love is fucked up.
Why must i be in love?
It hurts.
I hate it.
You can think about stuff whatever you want.
You can go and talk and spend time with other people,
After all they are more important.
I really don't give a fuck now.
I'm getting more angry by the second.
I just wish i wasen't even alive, I wish i was dead.
Well thats love so fuck it.
Family is also fucked up.
Everything i'm always the one that get blamed.
Whenever i needed you, you were never there.
I can't believe i bought for you something expensive but see how we are now.
Wasted my time and my money.
Fuck off from my life.

What's hidden inside.

So far during this holidays we have seen each other about 5 times.
Not seeing you makes me think negative, everytime we fight about small stuff.
Its making me mad. i don't think we meant to be with each other.Next year you got your N level, which makes it more harder to see each other. I don't think we even should be together.
We should be on our seperate ways. I'm really hurting inside.